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Watching He’s Just Not That Into You. Now I remember why this movie annoyed me so much. Ugh. I mean, really? I had issues with the book, too, but at least it actually offered a few sage words.

I am yelling at the TV. My step-dad is making comments like, “Well, this guy’s obviously an A-hole.”

I just don’t ever want to be like any of these women. Please kick me if I ever resemble them. I’ll deserve it.


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July 30, 2009 at 9:12 pm

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It seems to me that all the couples I know are either getting engaged or breaking up. (According to my mom, that’s what couples do in their twenties.) I am doing neither, but I find myself oddly affected by it all.

On Sunday I learned that my a friend from college—one whom I’ve had long conversations with regarding marriage and how she wasn’t sure it was something she ever wanted—got engaged. I was shocked. And though I wanted to ask her what the hell had changed, instead I just offered my congratulations.

This isn’t the first time news of an engagement has left me lost in thought. Mike teases me. He thinks it’s so strange that I should be left contemplating my own life just because something has changed in someone else’s. Perhaps that’s true.

Later that same day, Mike got word that one of his closest friends had been dumped by his long term, live-in girlfriend with practically no explanation. Since we’ve known them since the first days of their relationship, five years ago, the whole thing caught us both off guard. However, it’s clear to me that while it may have been a surprise to him, this was something she’d probably been thinking about for a long while. That is to say, I was not so surprised that things had gone in this direction for them.

So there we were, Mike and I, trying to draw conclusions from these strange fluctuations. How can so much change in such a short period of time, we both wondered. We are not a couple that moves quickly. We are very rational. Mike is indecisive; I’m inconclusive. We often leave conversations about the future unfinished for months at a time.

It’s nothing new for me, but this is the first time I’ve ever seen a change in his friend’s life really uproot him. Isn’t it a funny thing the way other people’s lives can put your own in perspective? It’s both good and bad, I think.

I gave him a pat on the back.

“Welcome,” I said.

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July 30, 2009 at 9:00 am

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Isn’t Today Wednesday?

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In that case, Happy Hump Day from the Truckee River.

When was the last time you had a squirt gun fight? Too long ago, I’m sure.

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July 29, 2009 at 12:21 pm

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Miss Snark

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My mom likes to say, “boy, do you have a mouth on you.”

To which I kindly retort, “Well, who the hell do you think I got it from.”

But my mouth is only the half of it. In fact, most of the snarky things I think, I don’t actually say. It’s pretty bad:

  • When I don’t get a job, I hope that the person they hired instead, turns out to suck.
  • I curse bad drivers with parking tickets, stubbed toes, flat tires, etc…
  • I get a kick out of reading bad fiction writing because it makes me feel better about myself.*
  • There are days when I have to fight the very real urge to steal puppies from perfectly nice dog owners.
  • If someone does something mean to me, I’ll spend hours fantasizing about the perfect stinging response.

Do you have secretly bitter thoughts, too?

*This is actually very rare—90 percent of the time all fiction writing seems better than my own. Probably why I relish the other 10 percent.

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July 28, 2009 at 10:00 am

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Tahoe, very beautiful.  Family, very strange.

*The title is actually intended to be an allusion to National Lampoon’s Vacation, the best vacation movie of all time. And far more hilarious than my own vacation. But the scenery is perfect so there’s no room for complaints.

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July 28, 2009 at 7:00 am

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Another Sunday, Gone

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So we had ourselves a real nice Sunday night dinner: steak, roasted potatoes, and green salad with cherry tomatoes. It was dang good. But I was feeling gloomy over worries about today.

I’m off to Tahoe with my Dad’s family. I love my Dad and the gang, but I’m no good in their company. I feel unlike myself, and I get anxious, which is mostly my own fault.

And also Mike was making these divine basil gimlets. They went down like water. But they made me very sleepy and droopy. I drooped onto my dinner plate.

I can’t decide whether it’s good or bad when a basil gimlet is the highlight of my Sunday. Hmmm . . .

I’m gonna say good.

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July 27, 2009 at 7:00 am

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Today was . . .

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. . . espadrilles, blue dress, long country drive, Point Reyes Station, cappuccino, savory crostata, used books, meanderings, cheese tasting, rustic local dinner, meyer lemon ice cream sandwiched between chewy gingersnaps, my usual farmhouse fantasies . . .

pretty perfect

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July 25, 2009 at 9:10 pm